One Week

Hey you guys! I hope you are all doing well. I'm just going to cut right to the chase. I hate this mostly raw cleanse. I have attempted this a few times before and I let enough time go in between that I always think it is a good idea again the next time I want to try it. I get all excited and I'm like "yeah I love fruit this will be great." Nope. I can't stand it. I don't want to eat fruit all day. By the time I get to dinner I'm annoyed and have a headache and I want to get food down as quickly as possible and crawl into bed. I know that it's probably detox but I just can't stand the idea of eating this much fruit for the next three weeks.

As I mentioned above, I've barely taken any pictures because it's all the same. I don't know why I try this again and again because I literally just get annoyed every single time. I'm revising the plan (still going to try to detox but just not in this way) and I'll discuss that after the pictures of fruit 😏

This is probably the highlight of what I have consumed. This is a watermelon tart cherry juice. It was good and definitely a nice change of pace.

I've been eating tons of grapes. I did not eat this whole bowl at once because I would never be able to get that down.

Lots of watermelon. Still love watermelon, but when I eat it this way it doesn't feel like a treat anymore.

Lots of bananas. Just one here but lots have been consumed.

So I think my issue with this and any "detox" or "cleanse" is how many rules they have and how restrictive they are. I love the idea of eating fruit and raw food all day in theory but in practice it sucks. First, I will never be able to consume the amount of calories I need in fruit because the volume is just too much. The reason I'm doing this is because I feel sick and to have to eat huge quantities of food is just not ideal for me. Also, it's just relentless sweet all day. I love veggies but to be honest I prefer most veggies cooked. I think that for me what is most important is still to focus on produce but to loosen the reigns on whether or not it is cooked and when I consume it. So, going forward I am going to focus on a whole foods plant based diet with minimal added oil, salt and sweetener and with as few ingredients as possible. I'm keeping the processed foods and sticking to what the earth has provided. I will still eat some raw food and I will still eat fruit. I'm just going to allow myself more variety.

I guess you can look at this as a failure but I'm choosing to look at it as I tried and I am adjusting based on what my body needs and I am adjusting to what will allow me to achieve my goals and what will push me toward success. I am also getting away from the structure and restrictive rules of what I was trying to do this week because as I mentioned I am healing and recovering from an eating disorder. I think it is in my best interest to loosen up the rules a bit for my mental health and for my recovery.

So, that's pretty much it. I feel better about this plan and I think that I will enjoy more success and feel better this way. I am still optimistic that this will help and I'm looking forward to sharing the meals that I have planned for next week.

I hope you all have a great weekend!