I'm Back? Maybe? Kind Of?

Whoa. It's been a long time. Like a really long time. I'm sorry about that. I know it kind of sucks that I disappeared without saying a word. It was never my intention to do that. I fully intended on posting and coming back. Then the holiday season popped up and it sucked. Then January rolled around and it felt like it took forever. I started a new job that I originally hated. I also was just going out and living my life and being in the moment. It's been a weird, amazing and painful few months and I think I just needed some time off to process everything. I'm happy to say that while things suck right now (I'll get into that in a second) I'm doing ok and I've been missing you guys a lot and felt like it was time to come back. I'm sorry that I have not been keeping up with your blogs. That sucks and I'm really sorry. I am looking forward to catching up though. I also just want to say thank you to everyone that has reached out to me during this hiatus to check in. I really appreciate it and it means a lot that you care enough to take the time to do that. Thank you 💚

So here is a bit of an update on life. As I mentioned above, I started a new job at the end of December. I am doing insurance verification for a Physical Therapy office. I really hated it at first. I felt very stupid because it was just so confusing and so much to learn. Now that I've settled into it I feel better about it and a lot more confident. Of course now that the shit has hit the fan and we are in a global pandemic things have changed a bit. I was lucky enough to be given the opportunity to work from home starting two weeks ago. Unfortunately like many other businesses they've had to make a lot of cuts and while I'm one of few to still be lucky enough to have my job, I've been cut to part time for now. It's definitely a financial hit but nowhere near as bad as it could be so I'm counting my blessings that I still have a job and a paycheck and that I get to work from home. I work out of my brother's basement where he has an office set up and it's been working out well. Otherwise, as instructed, I "stay the fuck home."

The pandemic has been an emotional nightmare. As someone that struggles with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder it is my everyday existence magnified by about a million. Add into the fact that I basically live in one of the hardest hit places in the country, the idea of leaving my house, touching anything, eating any food, etc. is absolutely horrifying. I'm living out of the pantry. The only thing I've done is place an order for pick up at the vegan market/bakery because I know they are being careful and they aren't letting people in. It's been a nightmare. As of writing this post there are 13,356 confirmed cases in my COUNTY. It's seriously awful and it feels like the apocalypse. How are you all coping with this? I hope that you are all safe and feeling ok.

As I mentioned, I haven't take a whole lot of pictures during this hiatus. I have a few I'll share a few random ones below and in my next post I'll share some pictures from an amazing meal that I had at a restaurant that I had been wanting to try for so long. I will also do a post with some art that I've created over the past few months as well.

These first two pictures are from an afternoon out with my friends before the pandemic. I want to say it was in January. We went to a restaurant that wasn't super vegan friendly but they had this amazing dish on the menu! I think I just had to leave off some cheese and then I had this really fresh, amazing meal. There was farro under all of the goodies and on top there was black beans, chickpeas, tomato, corn and avocado. 

After we went for brunch we went and painted pottery and had such a great time! We went back 3 weeks later to pick up what we had painted and I'm so thrilled with how mine came out. They even had it displayed in the window!

As I mentioned I've been working out of my brother's basement. My colleague here has not been pulling his weight. I've been thinking about reporting him to HR 😂

I mean seriously!

As I mentioned I'll be doing a post with some art that I've created over the past few months but I wanted to share two pieces today. They are both birthday gifts that I have made over the past month and I'm thrilled with how they came out. I tried to make them really personal and both recipients really loved them.

They are totally different vibes and I really love them both. 

Finally, here are two photos of me from the past few months.

Just so you know I'm truly ok 💚

I've really missed you all and I'm glad to be back. To explain the title of this post, the maybe kind of is really because I'm not comfortable committing to a specific number of posts per week or any specific days I'll be posting. I don't want to put pressure on myself and lets be honest, things are just weird in the world right now. But I'm here and I'm excited to start sharing with you again.

Please let me know how you have all been!